"[My relationships were] like I was in these movies where the script was only half-written. When I’d get to the end of this half-script, the other actors wanted me to ad lib. But I had never gotten the hang of that. That’s why these movies were always box-office failures. Six of them in the past twenty years. I always blew the lines." ~ from my horrible first novel "Learn How To Pretend." (unpublished)(obviously)
Thursday, November 29, 2012
Scramble for what you can scramble for.
human beings we share a tendency to scramble for certainty whenever we
realize that everything around us is in flux. In difficult times the
stress of trying to find solid ground-something predictable and safe to
stand on-seems to intensify. But in truth, the very nature of our
existence is forever in flux. Everything keeps changing, whether we're
aware of it or not. What a predicament! We seem doomed to suffer
simply because we have a deep-seated fear of how things really are. Our
attempts to find lasting pleasure, lasting security, are at odds with
the fact that we're part of a dynamic system in which everything and
everyone is in process."
~Pema Chödron (Living Beautifully with Uncertainty and Change)